Life has a way of carrying us away in the ebb and flow of our daily routines. We move from day to day, season to season, being carried through time; and then one day it happens... we look up and wonder how exactly we got where we are. This is the story of my journey to a healthier life, showing my daughters that taking care of the body God entrusted to us is as important as taking care of every other part of our lives.
I'm still stuck :( I know why (I've lost all my steam) and I know what I need to do to get back on track (eat less, move more). But knowing and doing are very different things.
Doing a little research, I discovered that I really need to increase my protein. Protein keeps you feeling full and stops the mind fog that comes from low calorie choices. It seems that a good place to start is setting a goal of 20 grams at each meal and 10 grams for snacks. Sounds easy enough.
Thank God for Pinterest :) A treasure trove of ideas and recipes.
There is nothing quite like a clean slate and that is what Wednesday mornings are for me when it comes to WW. Everything resets and I get a new shot at getting it right.... giving up my selfish desires and working towards getting healthier.
I'm going to try something new this week... I'm going to try using the Simple Start method. I usually stick with counting points, which I like to do and feel that I can get more creative with, finding things that work for the entire family and not just myself. Simple Start is eating from a list of foods and not veering from it. I'm sure there's ways to be creative with it as well, but I just need to wrap my mind around it and play with it, I guess.
I'm off to the grocery store to stock up on the power foods on my list..... wish me luck for a great WW week :)
It's Monday and I'm determined to get back on track. I want to bring God glory through this, so I need to focus on not grumbling and whining about not getting my way through all this. I mean, it's only food, right?
So.... this morning I made french toast for breakfast. I have an abundance of eggs to use up and it seemed like a great way to use a few; plus the girls LOVE french toast :) I had two pieces for my breakfast and used 6 points I also made sure to get it down onto my tracker. It was a yummy start to a rainy, stormy day ;) I also determined to get back on track with Plexus Slim and Accelerator. As I've said before, that is my safety net and keeps me from over eating by controlling my appetite. All in all, it's been a pretty good start to my day. Now on to cleaning and reorganizing the kitchen to try and get it to be more functional.
I'm so off "the wagon" at this point that the wagon train has gone on without me and I can't even see the dust from their wheels any more :( Today is Mother's Day and I'd hoped to be down 15 pounds by now; but fact is, I'm only down a few (no where near the 15 I had hoped for). Being this far off track, I decided to go ahead and just enjoy the special holiday weekend. I didn't go over board, I just didn't worry about anything, nor did I even bother to think about points or what I was eating. Yet again, tomorrow, being Monday and all, is a fresh start. I'm praying that God totally focuses my heart on Him and His journey for me, not on what I perceive I'm missing out on. I'm laying it all at His feet yet again. I refuse to let my own failures define who I am in Christ.
Yesterday went ok.... in so far that I lost a little weight, but not sure exactly how I did that. Ugh! Gotta say that I'm frustrated right now; with myself not WW. I know God put me here on this path for a reason, yet in classic form, once the excitement wore off, I've been bucking Him every step of the way. I really do want to lose weight but the problem is, "I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT" not see what God is wanting to show me through this journey. I've got to just turn it all over to Him and let Him do with me what He wants, molding my life to His will.... that is so hard for me; I know in my heart and soul it's what is good and right, yet my human nature fights it and wants to control all of this. I want to lose weight and have a frappe' every day. I want to lose weight and enjoy the foods I want to enjoy, not worrying about their nutritional value or the long term effects it will have on my life. I want to eat like a six year old and still be skinny. I want. I want. I want....
But it's not about what I want. It's about what God is wanting to do in and through me. I should feel blessed having so much of His attention right now... instead, I'm feeling deprived and upset because I can't have my own way.
Heavenly Father, Please forgive my stubborn heart and behavior. Please soften my heart and bend it toward you and your will. Give me a willing spirit; one that desires to live only for you at the expense of my own selfish desires. Give me your strength and allow me to lean on you when I'm weak. Keep my eyes trained on your glory and my heart tightly bound to you. Guide my thoughts, my words, and my actions, so that my focus is completely on you and you alone. And, above all Father, thank you for never ever giving up on me through all my tantrums and failings. Amen
Am I ever going to get out of this vicious cycle of lose a pound or two, then gain it back the next day? It's my own bad choices that is keeping me where I am. I declare that I'm going to eat well, track my food, give up pop, get in some exercise....... then the realities of life come at me and I crumble. Well, it's Monday and a brand new week (mid-week point for WW) and I'd like to try to be down to where I was at my last weigh in. That means working at staying on track for the next couple of days to try to get a good start on getting back on track. I LOVE pop and the more I try to give it up, the stronger the tug, so maybe I should allow myself some diet pop for a bit and focus on not crumbling to "stress" eating. Here I go again....
Why am I having such a difficult time getting back on track? My first week or two on this journey was amazing! Now.... ugh
By late afternoon, I seem to fall off the wagon. Today is a new day with a clean slate. I began the day right with berries and greek yogurt for breakfast. Lunch will probably be chicken noodle soup and veggies. Dinner I'm planning on making Chicken Teriyaki with Broccoli. Sounds like a solid plan... let's see if I can stick with it for at least a day and get back on track.
Also, today I REFUSE to drink any soda pop (that is a huge slippery slope for me; one sip and it's all over)
