Be Still and Know I Am...

It's been rather stressful around our home recently and yesterday sent me over the edge.  I turned back to my old habit of turning to food for comfort.

It wasn't major.... I started the day ok other than running late and skipping breakfast; but as the day progressed and the stress began to spiral downward, so did my eating.  After seeing I'd gained a pound at my WW weigh in (wasn't a surprise - I'd stayed well within my points for the week but I knew I'd enjoyed too much sugar last week), I was determined to immediately get back on track.  I came home and made a healthy lunch choice of a salad and zucchini pizza bites.  4 points total for my day to that point.  That was the last good moment of my day food-wise.

Through the afternoon, as the stress began to mount, I started turning to food.  It started out as a bowl full of berries with the hope of whipped topping (zero point snack) only to find the can of whipped topping empty.  Yes, I ate the berries, but with a grumbling heart.  Soon I found myself turning to the red licorice I found in my backpack, which soon turned to munching on bagel chips while making dinner for the kids.  My true intention of making myself a healthy low point dinner, ended in me deciding to take the kids to church, then hit McDonald's.  Yes, I made the conscious poor choice of drowning my stress in a quarter pounder, fries, and a Dr Pepper.  Did it make me feel any better?  Nope.  It just added a bit of guilt on top of everything else.  Now, don't get me wrong, deciding to enjoy a fast food meal once in awhile isn't wrong at all.  The problem for me was that I chose to turn to food for comfort rather than turning to God and waiting on Him for counsel, blessings, answers, and even permission.

Today is a new day, a clean slate, a fresh start.  The stress that was there yesterday is still here today.  It's not going away too soon.  But I've chosen to hand it to God rather than to try burying it in "comfort food".  I chose to start my day with a good breakfast of shredded wheat cereal with sliced strawberries and milk.  I will stick to the plan God has laid on my heart in the beginning of this journey.  I realize I will still stumble along the way, but I also know that God is right there beside me, to pick me back up and set me straight again.