I find myself at the starting line once again, of a journey as familiar as the well worn path home. Over the past 15 years, I've gained weight, lost weight, gained some of it back, lost it again, gained more, lost some... well, you get the drift. Add into that constant cycle, a wonderful husband, four crazy daughters, a menagerie of animals, an out of the box "homeschool lifestyle" and a few medical conditions along the way and you suddenly find yourself wondering just how you managed to get back here, fighting this battle once again.
After throwing a few nice pity parties, crying many tears, pitching a few fits because I don't like what I see in the mirror, I began to search out a way to journey back to a healthy weight and life... for good this time. As a God loving woman, desiring to bring Him glory in all that I do and how I do it, I automatically began looking at many of the Bible based weight loss plans. I've done a couple in the past and loved how closely I walked with God thru those times. However, that said, I just truly didn't feel God calling me to jump into any of these programs this time around. I heard Him whispering "Simplicity. Remember? I have you on a journey to a much simpler life. One that leads straight to my heart. Stop complicating this." After a few months, and a lot of frustration and feelings of failure, I finally listened to what my God was speaking to my heart.
I made the decision on March 11, 2014 to return to Weight Watchers. As soon as I walked in, I felt an overwhelming sense of peace about things. I was excited... yes, actually excited to begin this journey again. I work well with the WW methods; my mind easily wraps around counting points, understanding power foods that will take me further, and I've always loved how it's all about adding in movement to your days, not pressuring you to "workout". I also know that I NEED the accountability that the weekly meetings offer. I've tried the program online in the past and failed miserably, it's just too easy to not write down what I didn't want to see. And.... remember that wonderful husband, 4 daughters, and menagerie of pets I mentioned? Well, this is a little time of renewal each week for a mom who finally realized she needs it.
It's my desire to bring God all glory as I journey to my "ideal" weight; through the ups and downs, the good days and the bad, the frustrating plateaus that are sure to come and the weeks that I totally slide and gain a pound or two. It goes beyond my own personal body issues and image because I realize that I'm setting the example for my daughters. I'm not wanting to get back to my teenage weight, it's not about the size on the tags of my jeans... it's about showing my daughters that God made us beautifully, uniquely, and perfectly. He entrusted our bodies to us to care for while we are living here on this earth; it's about getting healthy and being here to watch them all grow up to be the beautiful women God created them to be.
I'm inviting you along on this well worn journey, as I begin yet again. This time however, I'm going to be taking the time to find the joy in each step and not just focus on the destination.
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